Christmas.

ha-ha…hoping for a better Christmas but i still have not get it after so many years.did some clearing up right about a few weeks ago but my desk is still very messy,not because i did something it. But because i did nothing to it. weird right. I think too.

I spent about $100 on shoes and clothes for next year. which really makes a lot of sense considering the amount of clothes that i brought last year.

I totally and virtually have nothing to wear.this whole year.

not really. but still not enough for me. though i am the usual home-type girl that never really step out of the house until ABSOUTELY NECESSARY>

PDS have been very tough but still enriching for me. i am glad that i am doing something routine. or else i would go crazy…..

jie yi and I were talking about why Christmas evolved from the celebration of the birth of Christ to Santa Claus. and the answer?

no idea.

something for you to think about.

MERRY CHIRSTMAS!

leanne

我在怀疑是不是虚荣心在作祟。

昨天

非常心不甘情不愿到了领取旧课本的永康中学。

看到的却是人心最丑陋 的一面

尽管很早就到了 那个地方

但是到我那个时候找书，我却还是找不到。

找了好久，才找到几本像样的。

今天打算看看读读的时候，才发现我不是拿错版本就是拿错年级的书。

这次的课本花的钱，会很多。

Wish list and goals for 2010

1) Continue to stay happy and healthy

next year will be an important year somehow for me, i can feel it.The fact that i remained healthy this year is somewhat of an encouragement and of course an omen for me, because the usual pattern will be that i will fall sick twice next year. And i don’t want that to happen. The happy part is just to keep me sane, because i think i just lost myself a few months ago.

2) Pass all exams with flying colours.

it’s the usual thing, if not my sister would be dancing around happily and i would stare gloomily at her. if that’s doesn’t happen, then i am doing my job

3) Finish my story

i have been on this for like 2 years already, i need more than support, but the courage to finish that once and for all. Then, i can stop all the rethinkings.

4)Practise singing, because i got a hunch that we will be needing it again next year

i have went to KTV 2 times this year and many more suggests i am going to flunk singing if i do not bunk up

5) Spend more time on balancing my life

yeah. i am going to need it. Becoming upper sec, juggling 9 subjects and becoming NCO. this is not kidding.

6)  finish all the anime that i should have

this year have been more of the C.S.I and boys over flowers year, so i am going to finish inuyasha no matter what. And add in the sakura too.

7) Read more books and bunk up on English.

i have not been in the English mode this holiday and i know that is not going to help me in whatever i am going to do next year. Damn.

8)Don’t get into trouble.

with my luck , who knows. I am late for school once this year and forgot to bring my tie the previous year. And that;s enough to bring me through secondary. PLease. oh yeah losing my wallet and hp too. i got 2 false alarm already in one year. Don’t make it real.

9) Get a life

i need to get my life back, that includes goals like buying a camera, laptop and xbox 360. which will be my wishes for the next 5 yrs. Who knows? if my dad stuck lottery next year, i might get all of that at one go…

10) Good luck. i am going to need it.

who can guarantee that you wouldn’t get struck by lightning twice? what has happened can happen again. SO let’s hope that lady luck can bring me through all that. Liquid luck anyone?

 

Leanne

i seriously is having a very boring holiday

okay,

hi guys again.

I think i might have lived under a rock for some time now that i almost have nothing to do everyday.I have been staying @ home often and yeah you know watching television, going face book and so.I wanted to put up a wish list for both Christmas and my birthday but i have not really gone through the details yet. The main thing about me is that i really don’t go out until someone asks me to, so yeah, i have been entertaining myself for quite some time since the holiday started a month ago. And will end a month later. I been waiting for new moon to come out so that i can scam my dad to watch it, but till then, which is 2 days later, i have to occupy myself with schemes to do so.

the science specialist camp that was held about a week ago was great. I was quite worried that we have to spent quite a bit of time doing all the boring stuff like thinking of ideas for the competition and so but now i am glad that i overworried about things. The body world exhibition was okay, and it gave me insights of the real body that all humans we have and cannot see. i really have to say bravo for those who donated their bodies in order to make it possible. It was inspiring. Half of the time was also spent on ice-creaming making , which did not go as well as i thought would be. the ice creams were not typical ones that i thought it was, but at least it was original. some of the workshops that we went through were great, Mr Ng took great pictures of that. But i wasn’t thinking of eating the agar…..the DNA part was like a renew lesson of what we learnt in sec 1,  then the caffeine was quite interesting. I did not know that we were drinking so little caffeine just in one cup of tea. So little that indira have to blame sing ping that it’s all her fault. But whoever fault that is, i still like the whole process.

The open house that was held just last Saturday as one word. CRAZY! i am glad that i was given a chance to say what i had to about how wonderful anderson is to me, and yeah, that 5 hrs drove everyone crazy. We had to repeat countless times about the facilities that we have in anderson, though i believe all of us are glad that we were given answers by some of the parents about how school is for us. That is better than repeating again and again what the PCR machine is for and Incubator too……

Leanne

P.S. thks to jia wei for reminding me to update my blog.

爱情的颜色

如果，

海是蓝色，云是白色，树是绿色，花是红色。

那爱情，是什么颜色？

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

我个人认为，爱情是无色的，因为，它根本就不存在。

1月12日 自 我 强 烈

1月12日出生的人总是不可避免地献身于一个需要投注很多心力的专业生活。他们的生涯规划或终身兴趣经常在二十多岁时就产生，之后便会为了这个兴趣牺牲掉很多东西，特别是个人内在成长方面。尽管他们认为生命的宗旨在于服务别人，但事实上，他们却也很容易被各种刺激和冒险的事情吸引，有时是跟着别人，有时是个人的追求。一旦被这个野性的呼唤所吸引，他们便会义无反顾地跟随着这个呼唤。 正因为工作生涯是生命的中心，这天出生的人必须小心选择工作，避免走入一个对他们或别人有害的经验里，维持严格的道德原则，守住传统的人类价值，都是很重要的基本。他们必须小心监控自我牺牲的冲动和自我中心的力量，才不会失去控制。很多这天出生的人会轻易认同一个社会或政治本质的理想，他们会为了这个理想放弃个人的坚持。当然，他们之中一部分的人可能会完全投入经营自己，当他们的个性或形象是事业成功的关键时，尤其如此，例如销售员、服务业、广告界、演艺事业等等类型。
他们通常很活泼，甚至话太多，必须时时小心不要让人觉得太骄傲，以免引起别人不悦。在某些情况下，他们若用比较低调的态度，倾听别人的需求，成功的机会就更大。然而，他们却经常跟着自己的想法跑，既不需要警告，也不需要别人的忠言。即使注定失败的计划，他们也会固执地坚持到底，不会尝试改变。因此当计划确实失败时，他们就必须承受到极大的打击。
似乎他们喜欢的专业（或是全心投入的兴趣）都是很不平常的。就因为这样，当他们成功时，别人会认为他们很聪明，很不平凡，只是有一点怪异。事实上也是如此，稳定的生活、一般的成就，都不是他们所追求的。然而，如果他们碰对人，这个人比他们稍微保守，但显然是个很棒的人（又拥有冷静和稳健的特质）时，他们便可找到持续的快乐。

幸运数字和守护星
1月12日出生的人受到数字3（2+1=3）和极具延展性的木星影响。受数字3主宰的人容易在专业领域里爬到最高点，也可能有独裁的倾向。另外，数字3也使人喜欢独立，所以1月12日出生的人，可能会为了寻求更大的自由而放弃高位，他们也可能会逐渐发现指导别人是件相当疲累的事。木星所带来的特质会刺激1月12日出生的人追随热情，但是土星（魔羯座的主宰行星）的影响又让他们在必要的时候保持小心、谨慎与实际，特别是在他们的私人生活上。

 
健康
1月12日出生的人很容易忽视自己的健康（除非直接关连到他们的重要活动）。因此，建议他们每半年作个健康检查。通常牙齿会是第一个发生的问题。此外，荷 尔蒙不平衡、体态总是等等也层出不穷，甚至会有超重或体重过轻的状况。其他令人困扰的过敏、皮肤问题等，也从不间断。所以，他们应该有稳定的生活形态，才能维持稳定的健康情形。饮食务求均衡，摄取大量新鲜水果、蔬菜、谷类，限制摄取动物性脂肪和糖分等。适度的运动，在户外作长程的步行是最适合的运动。
建议
多注意自己的生活，维持基本的道德观念。记得听取他人的建议。注意傲慢或自大的态度。别在专业上失去理智。工作只是你生活的一部分。

塔罗牌
大秘仪塔罗牌的第12张是“倒悬者”，他用单脚倒吊在树上，虽然他看来有点无助，事实上，他掌持之以恒沉思和精神面的力量；因此，当牌面正立时，表示认清极限、解决问题和拥有人文特质；倒立则代表在精神上有所局限，并且缺乏远见。

静思语
心灵的最大呼唤就是真实对待自己。

优点
乐观、具扩张力。

缺点
不自觉、批判性强。

 

很不刻意地发现我的生日到底有什么意义，开始觉得好像在读着别人的性格写照。完全不像我。

going crazy soon:-)

haha i am now typing from my dad's samsung jet which would be officially mine soon...i lost my priceless memory card in the process of trying to squeeze in into the compartment zpace but it somehow slipped into the corner and disappeared!!!!!i cannot believe it!!---:;(-^;/@~!here goes my 135 songs,over50 pics and all my favourites !!-- someone can help to find It back???

ATC 2009

hiya,

i am officially back from the Pulau Ubin NPCC campsite where i had my ATC< Well, it was very fun and Very TOUGH. after the camp i felt like i can’t go to school tmr.Literally. Ha, i got hell lots of sunburn which made my skin very uncomfortable and it is worse than when the entire squad had to do CIP in the basketball court wearing black for 5 hrs.i bought back with me memories of this camp, one particular about the “ATC COUPLE” in my group, which is grp 1. Wei Ling from Xinmin and another Bowen guy called JOShua [ not sure spelling] got tied up together just because they played with the twine that was left over after the activity. It was quite funny and i laughed a lot over that. I guess i would not play with any guy for no good reason.especially with thread.

As chinese saying goes :" tying red thread” means tying 1 guy and 1 girl together. HA> erhemm.. I quite had a good impression on timothy from PEi CAi because of this humorous personality and Pricilla was have lots of fun teasing a guy that i barely knew his name. He claimed that he doesn’t have any email or facebook account, something that i find it quite unbelievable. okay, i hate the PT on the first day, mainly because that i couldn’t take it and had to push myself to the limits. I was shaking because of the strength that i used.Next time before i go to STC, i think i will first go running. OR else i will seriously CRASH> there are no casualties from my sch except for Jimm, who fell down and spent half the camp not doing much… He said he wouldn’t come next yr, but we just tease him and say that next yr he report as casualty as well. That got him thinking.

ALso, i find the Monfort guys quite helpful, volunteering for everything. They say that they just do it, and our AtC pt is very easy as compared to their. Well, it’s hard to imagine how it gets tougher that what i had experienced over the two days. i remember majority of the Monfort guys, but still dunno how to spell them, so i am  going to try doing so, there’s NORMAN, JASPER, pairy?,and some guy whose name is very similar to JAsper’s sound. { SORRY!} i briefly met NOMAN during SANA this june hoilday, and had quite an impression on him.

Tent pitching was a total failure for me because our CI taught us different pitching methods as compared to other schools., but i am glad that the tent guy loop got in handy. AT least i did something right? and not hold the pole. LOLS> The nights i had spent were quite unforgetable, the first night was incredibly noisy due to the crickets and some animal that i dunno. On the second day, the sound from these animals were not significant.i think it is due to the wet weather, and the drastic change in temp. MY back hurts from all the sleeping on the ground and stuff, and my partner says i snores……. arh…don’t think so. IT’s someone else!!!!

Having kayaking with CHestor was not a very good idea on the second day because he was very tired and stuff, and i virtually have to paddle all the way without his strength…. Having rations the same as the camp that we had this yr was a very good time to showcase our cleverness, as we steamed the packet food like what Farah mdm did.

well, i guess that’s all.

hope to see all the ppl back for STC next yr.

Leanne

潘老师生日快乐

今天有一点轻浮的感觉。

首先，我要祝潘老师生日快乐！

很快的，一年又要过去了，

一年一度的小六会考又来临了！

虽然对潘老师生日有感觉到短暂的快乐，

还是有一点点忧伤，

因为时间过得太快了！

但是，我还是坚信，我的生命还是会出现亮点！

[有点白痴的感觉]

再见

NOT SLEEPING>

i am quite amused by the fact that i am still up so late. I had not have any problems sleeping till recently and the fact that i took a short nap just now just makes it even more difficult to sleep. I know that i should be studying right now, but i don’t feel like it anymore when the Post sticks kept dropping off my notes corner.I felt moody today, though Syahmi said that i am always moody. ARH? a few days ago, Jun Jie actually commented that my life’s all about studying. Well, that’s almost true…I don’t disagree, but still…HOw would i get all those pretty marks if my life does not orientate around school? that makes me really wonder how ppl relax when it comes to studying. I totally envied them.I wish all the best for the Malay students taking their exam about 8 hrs later. I hope that syahmi will make it. He absolutely study Malay as a technical subject, as much as I study english technically. I laughed at him for studying something as trivial as languages, and he laughed at me back. HAHAH>>>

leanne

Cbox. warning!

Hari RAYA!

HI guys,

it’s  the holidays again. ARH> i cannot finish my homework on time that’s for sure. My ankle hurts, and i am not sure if it was because of the Npcc Training this Fri. That would be the last until after the exams, so my muscles should be able to recover till then. I spent the entire day on Saturday reading <the sugar queen> mainly because i felt confused after reading it. Shocked too, before i retrace my steps and read it again. I can’t believe i spent such a long time reading such a thin book. maybe i am getting old. {sigh} counting down to THE SA2s, and i have not read anything yet. Well, i did read something. I read the history textbook, which reminds me that i have a test on chapter 7 or 8. MCQs i think. I still have to do reflection and the mindmap {again}, mainly because i did the wrong chapters……MRs Krishna never reads my reflections,  because if she did, she would have a shock of her life then….

I finished the 2006 paper for the Maths, which will put me forward in my homework for at least 3 lessons. Then, i did not even touch the science worksheet. Good thing that she didn’t give out worksheets on the last chapter, or else i will not even bother to take it out from my file. there is still english that is undone, i mean the summary, which sounded quite easy….. Sacking…ARHS>?

leanne

Active and Passive..

random.which can get more random enough during CE lesson. I feel like going crazy when Mdm Lum started the lesson on sexual reproduction,and i am hoping that it will end soon. IT IS TORTUROUS and i cannot believe that we are tested for SA2!

The cat ate my homework. [active voice]

The homework was eaten by my cat.[passive voice]

RECAP. Though i certainly am not going to use the latter.

Boys Over Flowers Singapore

Boys Over Flowers Singapore

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i finally have the time to research on the song that Juli likes to sing during training, I didn’t expect it to be sung by the wonder girls, but now to think of it, the lyrics kept repeating which makes a lot of sense. Wonder girls JIAYOUS!

IT"S the HOTS!

wow! it’s the holidays again and i can’t believe that time really flies. WE are going to say goodbye to 2009 in a few months and then welcome 2010 with open arms!I still need to adjust myself to the holiday mood, and hopefully adjust it back into work mode when the the remaining 5 days are finally over. i need to start on my studies, or take a break and catch some movies with whoever’s free……The boys over flowers wallpaper is still on my study room’s wall, which reminds me that the series is finally coming to an end soon, airing @ channel U. I need not go to school for the remaining days, but i want to go back to see my bacteria culture and collect my internet essay. I foresee that i will not go anyway, and the internet essay is definitely going to rot inside Mr Khoo’s pigeon hole , well, what can i do anyways?

leanne

Flowers in inspiration

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

有时—希望—她—我。

有时觉得世界很安静，

有时觉得世界很吵闹，

有时希望这个，

有时希望那个，

无忧无虑，

无可顾及，

自由自在。

有时很快乐，

有时很忧伤，

有时很希望我能，

勇敢点，

有时希望她，

停止我的伤痛。

有时我只需要“对不起”，

有时我却需要更重点的忧伤药。

有时我毫无顾虑，

有时我却顾虑太多。

有时很想打她，

有时却像尊重她。

有时真的希望她能尊重我，

有时真的希望她能在我面前消失。

HAPPY TEacher’s day

okay i really have to say happy teacher’s day to those teachers that are reading this. I really wonder who would….anyways, i only have to endure for about 3 days before i get released from school. Which is not a total release actually because i need to go study, maths and science and all….I was really glad that i got better marks for my functional writing this time around, winning seng hee….Whether i am really improving in my English will depends on what score i get next team, which reminds me that i have to really start memorising the words in my word bank again…..i was staring at it quite often recently as compared to last year, well but my heart wasn’t in it.

this year my heart was not in much either. I went to the popular book store last week or so, but i still couldn’t get all the pretty presents that i want for my teachers. I saw a few nice ones though my wallet will bound to tear one big hole. I liked the personalise cards with the Cds, i wonder if they were realor not. But still , what can i put in the real CDs? In a torment here, so i didn’t buy it. IT was $$$$2.90!!!!

i wish i can start concentrating in class again to maximise my fullest potential , but the small headaches that i have now and then really stopped my from doing so , plus some sentimental feelings that i had tried to flush away recently. I was officially out of depression as of last Monday when i cut my hair, a good change though i think it didn’t helped much.

i finished CSI new york season 5 finally after such a long period of time. Season 6 is coming thank god and inuyasha’s new season is coming too! i am so looking forward to them….

Leanne

we watch the sun rises…….

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a bit cloudy recently, so a lot of beautiful sun rises and scenes…..

Not in CE lab on tuesday post

okay, i did went to the ce lab, but i just didn’t blog. too troublesome cause i cannot type well and there is no spelling checker.haha. changed my blog skin and my music playlist as well to some of the songs that i got from la corda. After really searching for them then i realise that not everyone plays music the same way, not music is the same at all..well , that makes my think of something…the anime did makes me did about a lot of things, things that i always forgot and regret. i have been regretting for ages that i didn’t learn any foundation music before primary school and also major musical instruments. i really like the sound of viola and violin, but never really learnt it. Piano is like only occasional practise on my electrical keyboard, i can’t even play my primary school school song well. LOL> still in the period of trying to get all the music and keys flowing…so….

really feel like learning violin.

 

leanne

passed my 2.4km nafa test rerun.

yeah i passed my nafa rerun the nest time on thursday

i was damn happy because i made it!!

of course i never stopped and i trained for it.

np training yesterday was like damn hard,

and the three musketeers just make it even harder,

of course i make some mistakes of my own even though i reminded myself,

and forget it, i was not in the concentration mode.

playing blind mice was the worse type of training i can even get, because i just lose my sense of balance when i close my eyes.

and i can’t really concentrate with all the senseless drills so i have to frown. a lot.

and everyone was laughing at me during training.

i got into the top 3 with praveen and juli.

she won, when willy/jie kang schemed up with ideas of how to tie-break us.

the pledge drill during Ndp was given. and we all went down. except juli…

 

leanne

hi guys again.
i am inside CE lab. AGAIN.
i can't believe that i can't log into facebook.....
that's what Praveen is doing now....
reflecting about what i did during national day is totally GUILTY>
i did nothing except to read on the subjects that are tested this week
and a lot of CSI.
i watched 2 eps of CSI in one day. which is a record. when my mom is not home.
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okay. i admit that TRIPLE is not a good korean drama as i thought it would be.
i totally went crazy on the first eps.
TOTALLY>
there is only like 30 minutes on true figure skating topic,
and the rest of the time is up for the Coffee prince guy. the one with the fluffy dog.
and the triple is like so fake cause i know that in actual fact the kid didn't do it.
editing does it.......
so much for being so PRO in skating....

leanne

上个星期二

完全进入了忧伤状态，加上下雨，好像忧郁感又更严重了。

最讨厌下雨天了。完全无法进入状态

而今天头痛又回来了。

不知道到底是不是上学的问题

我真的真的好讨厌我现在的生活。

也许我要做的是，看清自己，放慢脚步，享受优质人生。

我无心去纠正对与错，很想澄清现实，但是，只会唤呼我，所压抑的情绪。

到时候，只会留下，不好的回忆。

what do i see?

mac

i dunno if i can be able to type chinese which this, i mean the macbook. i am now in the CE lab. and for the sake of JIAN LE going to complain that i have not being able to update for such a long time. i am writing this damn post. i was quite not very feeling good recently, and i thought that i might even have the flu strain. but no fever. i am being taken on to writing my book recently though i have swore that i am struck with momentarily blankness. i will get over it soon . hopefully.i watched the harry potter last tuesday and i wrote a review about it on www.whateveread.blogspot.com hopefully that i will rest well and recover from all the blues....


leanne

dying of muscle ache

i am literally crashing. even the tips of my fingers are so part of my huge pain.all because of 2.4 and the Cip that i had yesterday and the day before. it’s a miracle that i had the strength to type out this post… okay, the day after tomorrow is anderson’s day off, which means that i have one more day to recover from the useless lactic acids…Jun jie asked me if i want to go to Harry potter with classmates and i said that i would reply him tomorrow. which is a total disaster considering that on friday i was planting the whole idea of going to the movies especially harry potter into my mom. Now my sister was like, I WANT TO WATCH TOOO..which is not a good idea considering tuesday….stupid…i want to eat MCs badly and with nearly 100 dollars left this month, i am damn rich next wk…cca is due to start on friday instead of Wednesday because of o level listening but the prospect of cca suddenly don’t look very good. i am half hoping that there wouldn’t be a parade this yr for ndp so that seng hee would scream in delight of not playing the drum or whatso ever on that day….

leanne

funny.

absolutely funny……

it’s pizza time.

today is youth day. which is a nice change from all the school and homework in the first week. well, i now can sum up what i have done during the long 4 wks holidays , although i am now looking forward to national day…. evergreen’s anniversary have effectively been postponed to august 7th which is just the Friday before the long national day holidays. hope that by then i would be filled joy as we watch alumni of my primary sch do their part for their alma mater on this eventful night.

i have done much in the holidays except from all the resting, and i am i guess fortunate to not have insomnia during the holidays which i usually do…Camp for the science specialists have went well, with the cool amazing race and all the cooking in the HE room during the last night at the camp. the pizza that my seniors made were marvellous, and i decided to try it at my hands today. good thing i did not overcook it, but the cheese was a little over melted…. i am not going to try doing the yam desert…because i wouldn’t be the one eating it anyways..i hate it…okay…… SRP was great. the plants are hopefully have not drowned or die because of the rain that happened throughout yesterday.the feeling it gave me was not great….

the second last weekend was spent together with 6 charity 07 and our beloved Mrs tong, who is pregnant……..at the east coast park. renting the bike was a good choice because we ventured quite far away from the area that we took our bus…but returning it is not really that good when i have to walk back to the shelter… managed to see tai ru, Terence, loy, elly , ai hui, celine , terran, amin, hazel and justin. the rest was busy i guess….the volley ball that rovin and alicia brought was quite hard and i had a hard time controlling it… amin and terran was enjoying the sand by burying each other’s shoes, which they have problems finding it afterwards…oh yah..seah is in the game too…. tai ru virtually scream my name at some period of time, which made me feel like i am dying or something….

the next week was spent on doing my going to expire passport..with the baby photo…the queue time at ica was amazing short. good service despite the crowd that should occur during the school holidays. the afternoons after that was spent on some idling at orchard or bugis..i managed to buy a few things at amazing prices because of GSS….i LOVE IT>

okay my final weekend was spent on some volunteering, which i asked politely if the public would like to donate some money to me….not to me arh..to SANA. i met a couple of guys from navel base, and one of them look a lot like asraf sir…. i had a great time at woodlands together with the fine gentlemen, and also met Terence and his mother who donated some money to SANA> thks you guys who donated ! you are a very kind person….[copied from the phrase that was used by….what’s his name again?] the sana volunteer suggested that we should join them as volunteers or instructors and get CIP too….evil. okay, hope that i would have enough time to go for that next yr!!!

 

leanne

Sana flag day.

well, Sana flag day 2009 was a success. for me. that is. if i get to keep all the money that i collected for myself,then i would be damn rich….

wuhhaaaa….sounds so evil. it was fun, considering the number of hours that i sacrificed for standing in the hot sun….

managed to get to know some of the npcc and ncc numbers of naval base sec. i am sure someone would say hi?

 

leanne

depressed.

this holiday makes me feel like i am taking drugs. Drugs are meant for people to feel happiness momentarily and in long term cause depression.that’s what this hoilday have taken towards in the last few days or perhaps weeks.

i always hated project works all these years. On the account of academic results, we have to work together and produce results.On several occasions i find myself pulling my hair over something that is due the next day. All because of someone who fails to remember dates, have computer problems or in simpler words-lazy.I always have problems trusting that person after that. then, as time passes and i do more and more project work, my list just narrow to half a dozen “candidates”. I fail to truly recover from that experience.Every now and then i would try to accomplish the job by myself and it sort of just means that i “share” my marks with the rest of the people. The past few months have been simply marvellous.The stress just builds and i try to look forward to the holidays. With little success and more of the failure.

To me, rest is not staying @ home one day and going some where else the other. My ultimate desire is to stay @ home everyday.that’s is the least of my issues. I was able to recover myself from that kind of thinking and embrace the lifestyle that i am suppose to adopt. with success. till today.

I have never felt so irritated in my life. Perhaps a little lesser that the issue that i have before my P6 dec holidays which left a scaring in my heart.After that, i have been very sensitive about words. The way you phrase , How you accuse me. I totally in one word HATE any attempts of accusing ME. I will hate the person for a long time and believe my words.

Do not ever distrust my sense of responsibility, my judgement and whatever that i meant to say or do. That’s the bottomline. i always fail to understand people who never listen before making ANY judgement @ all. Before finishing your sentence, imagine how you feel when the person out rightly say NO and never gives an explanation? It’s feel terrible. it was as though you wasted your strength, time and thinking. For me, i feel hollow, without any purpose in life.

I was prepared to take a step back, to take a break from all the responsibility and to experience for another time- what it feels to be lead by other and then another problem arise.

this time it made me feel idotic. NOw i am accuse of not doing any work…when i am rejected of any work.

I”M depressed.

Pls understand and give me my break.

 

LEanne

请不要打我的电话。

我已世隔绝。

想沉浸在自己的世界里。

1.2.3. 木头人

纵使受尽委屈
我也要努力
保持风度吗？

 

 

 

 

 

 

卧倒雪地
三天三夜
可能都没有人会发现

 

 

 

 

 

 

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results.results.results.again

hiya,

it’s going to be the June Holidays soon and obviously we are going to get our report books.

It’s attached.

Basically i have done well for the Term, but not well enough to make me happy.

Ah duh. Nothing makes me happy?

English is the usual lag, though i admit that i screw up on the comprehension part.

I have to do something about it. And i hope that the something is not going to tuition.

C5. 0.2 more marks and i get a pretty B4.

i need to deal with this. Fast and Furious.At least i tried my best. i improved from Ca1 to SA1 by 1mark.

Maths is like a miracle that i can even pass even though i failed all my tests.

A2.

Science, Geography,History,Literature the usual As. Nothing out of the ordinary.

Chinese is perhaps the most disappointing of all.

B3.

i am not sure if i have braced myself for this but failing comprehension after i had passed with flying colours all this while is not a very good way to failure.

so much for the lecture of reading more newspapers and getting nothing out of it.

oh god, i am definitely not going to take art.

i got an ugly B3, bringing the total B-count to 2. so much for having a artistic talent when i was young.

in total , i got 1C,2B and a whole lot of As.

Wish i could concentrate on the A part instead of the B & C part. But then, i wouldn’t be a perfectionist, would I?

i must really admit that i could have done better.

Riding on the road to perfection.

 

Leanne

i think i ned a psychiatrist. i am overwhelm with anger one second, and sad on the other.

i can’t control my feelings better than before. i am like a ticking bomb that can explode anytime.

i ned rest. not sleep but proper rest. i’ve worked hard for the semester and it’s time that i should start resting.

the cambodia trip is off , and i am free the entire hoilday. that’s not quite what i call a well rested hoilday. but that would do.

i ned to change my mindset of things. my future, my attitude, everything.

i can;t wait for the hoildays.

still hoping that i wouldn’t wake up tmr.

don’t agitate me.

 

leanne

busy arhs.

i hate busy days.

getting sunburn in CIP is one issue , doing SRP is another.

woke up @ 5.45 this morning SUNDAY.

i am super tired now , and i am literally , crashing.

and it’s only 7.31.

hope that i would be able to get enough rest during the hoildays.

i am tired, i ned rest, and sleep.

 

leanne

真实的，有时下雨天。

我最讨厌下雨天了。

雨天，似乎加重了我对事情的伤感度。

总是有一种想不出来的忧伤。

雨，

一滴一滴地滴在我的身上。

忧伤一点一滴地加重我的心。

那种感觉，

似乎让我喘不过气来。

当我们同在一起。

带我们同在一起，

在一起，

你会感受到什么样的FEELING？

很久没有尽情的读书了，

开始捡起书的时刻，

我又开始后悔了，

发现自己在走向自我催眠的道路。

以最深刻的角度，

来了解为什么，

我会感到，

如此心动。

spur on the moment

when i become usually me, i am unusually me.

when i think,time ticks by.

perhaps while we search for immortality,

immortality is searching for mortality.

when we search for the future,

future changes while we search.

while we search for the antidote to time,

time is the antidote.

As much as we search in ourselves,

we may never find,

what is truly,

impossible.

 

leanne

English exams.

tomorrow is English exams.

[sign] i am unusually frantic over it.

a few days ago, i was virtually digging for my old vocabulary word bank 

to revive the vocabulary that i have abandoned since the last day of PSLE.

oh great. Now i realise that i am having a long term memory lost- i can’t remember any of the words. At all.

i am sure someone would comment on my actions disparagingly, not to mention the self-inflicted guilt that i have felt just because i have neglected my English.

Of course,that would be a tip of the iceberg. There’s still Maths to worry about and also Science, though i am more worried about the latter.

Mr khoo gave a clue that it would still be in the perceptive of a student; and in internal report format.

which leaves me with very little options to choose what to search from my vocabulary bank.

Fighting? Argument? That’s all that i could think of. It shouldn’t stray far from the topic mainly because it will be an internal report.

NO and highly unlikely involvement from the Police. SO , no accident of some kind on the roads and definitely no snatch thief or robber of some kind.

Free writing is the component that worry me the most. i have no clue of what would be tested, though i am quite sure that it would be either a narrative or recount.

i am definitely not going for the argumentative essay.

i hope that i would have enough time to write the essay properly, plan,check-everything.

i guess it is a matter of practise. i just have to cross my mind barrier about the certainly B3 and below grade.

 

It’s mind over matter.

 

JIAYOUS LEANNE!!!!

leanne

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half day so much for it.

feel so empty after a day…

i still ned some homeworking to help to fill up the hole..

the english project is making me crazy..as much as the history did too..

i am trying to die here…

the music is already okay..

that reminds me..

so..

leane

breaking dawn-disease

hi i am back again.

with the heart that i am going about twilight…

have been so crazy last wk…

trying to read the series online…watch the movie ANd do all the homework..

admit it..i am a superhero…

okay…

i have so many thoughts abt the issue this min that i will swore that i would have to write a essay on it..

seriously..

i like analysing books..

though i am seriously not going for literature elective..

it sounds..strange,

crossing essay already proves.it.

well…@ least i weren’t that mad abt it the last time i was with the harry potter [ i swear i could remember the entire bk]

but close.

veri close.

i almost wasted all my revision time for the bk.

so much for the english.

hell..i still ned to revise my maths..

gd thing me sis got the breaking dawn in her hands now…

cause or else I would be the one READING it…

 

leanne

hi guys again ,
calling from the labs of anderson in CE.
got hell lots of stuff to do this wk,
liike the music project,
english trailer ,
CE....

whatever...
calling later.

leanne

popING finally.

pop is finally over..

so sad. that i have to see batches of NCOS go and finally the year after myself.

but all was not for nothing….

for the last time i saw himile commanding us,

he’s a good commander i think cause..

i only seen only one commander….on ndp and passing out.

forgot who’'s the last yr.

even with the two drill-less cadets next to me..

i am still contented…happy…sad….

finally got to step on Ivan and Prashan’s shoe….hahahaaa…

ivan’s wouldnt even get dirty no matter how much we step on his shoe lols.

remember last yr how we step on asraf’s shoe till the sole come out..

that time we were still naive….

and then prashan looked @ though he got trashed!!!!

this time the moment we were dismissed we run after the ncos…

and this time i only got to step on a few ….

not fun.

this year slightly different from last,

got buffet, and then no cake…

but i managed to do the presents pretty good but with the cards the part about the signing seems to be unsastifacting.

but i close one eye..

all the stuff started dropping out which is damn irritating…

but the lucky draw was quite amusing…

prashan and ivan got a female handphone pouch…

which is PINK in colour…

so funny lols…

but can give girlfriend…

and then Amir got this very cute small umbrella….

so cute@@@!!!!

and shafeeq got this pack of tissue paper..

he was the first one to draw lots…

but after that sec 3s gave him something extra…

look like puppet on stick…

finally ivan gave us back our valuables..for the last time we say thank you sirs and madams..

and then prashan and ivan

pass the bag of ferrero rocher to sean which i got it afterwards.

 

pop did not went so fun as the last..

but never minds.. next year my turn!!!!!

must start thinking……

thinking……

 

leanne ;<

earth hour 2009

Earth Hour. Take a part. We can make a difference. Together.

有时你会觉得，

一切都是命中注定。

无论我再这么努力，

我都是无能为力。

让我更糟的是，

我却毫无知觉。

一次又一次的告诉自己，

我必须为此付出我的一切。

我却得不到我想到的。

从古自今，

成绩，

永远是努力的成绩。

我却一次又一次的容许我自己失败。

我变得，

好恐怖。

npcc…again.to the extention of pop.

hi,

this is what happened todae.

school as usual…

i got my unit tee today!!!!

yeah…

 

leanne

camp plus civil defence

hi guys,

telling u wat happened in these few days,

so on Thursday i went to the full day total defence camp.

so the three of the 4 musketeers came. together with extra cheese.

totally, extremely, humiliating to both my sch AND NPCC.

throw our faces to the ground and they stepped on it.

though i can say that they are to a small extend- funny.

but.

i still not very happy.

furthermore. they did not come in PT kit. seriously, Naveen and i was joking abt one 1/8 school.

fancy wearing class tee and being late for the course.

dont even know how to fall in.

I was feeling humiliated compared to the guy standing nxt to him from hougang sec. [ i think]

and when u ask him to fall in, they say none of your business.

even the sec 3 senior Abdul[ it this correct?] also got problem controlling them.

and Benjamin and kathik got into a fight outside the civil defence centre.

utterly. totally.

so , in general i learnt a lot of things.and happy the day ended quickly.

 

coming to camp,

the first day was spent on Amazing race, didn’t won though.

and of course lunch then camp preparation. and camp fire,

ivan sir came up with one spongebob song Abt  fun.

so since the theme for this yr is change , yes we can.

so we change the theme to something FUN.

 

F is for friends who do stuff together,

U is for you and me ,

N is for anywhere and anytime @ all

down here in NPCC.

 

we even to the left leg kick , right leg kick together till i say behenti….

the NCOs and EX clapped so loudly for all of us…..

ha of course i came up with a cheer for Charlie…. with the style for the p5 camp

glad it came in useful.

then we had some supper with maggie mee….

then the nightwalk cum scary movie.

the nightwalk was quite okay…expect the nco to come and scare us but due to something, the ncos have to drop their plan.

heard that prashan even brought a mask….

scary movie…

i was like alsleep in the first part then jimmy told me that it’s not scary

which is like not scary.

cause no ghost. only devil possess someone….i like the way it is presented though…

only the part where prashan told a ghost story abt anderson to the cadets that i did not listen @ all.

heard something abt red …..

nvm….

then lights out.

but did not sleep though. floor so hard, then i keep waking up upon hearing sounds.

finally woke up @ 6 then go and bath….gd thing i did.

cause later PT….

have kaya and bread for breakfast…

then a little chit chat with HO

sent our regards to ppl in Cambodia with drawings…

then area cleanup…all the boys in my group have to clean up drains..

and we were like the last team…

then more chit chat with Ncos , CI

and finally HOME>>>>>>>>>

forgot to say what JImm told me..

i ned Beijing 101 cause my hair still falling like mad….

which is quite worrying,

not stress cause like exam over then start…..

 

leanne

cross country.

hi guys,

hoildays seems to not be nice to me these days. barely neck down.

so. cross country well pretty well.

with me hitting personal target of 25 mins.

[yeah!]

and maths remedial went really well…

fake MOI!

yeah i finally finished Beethoven virus this week!!!!

np yesterday was quite tiring cosidering that we have to do the MOI that turns out to be fake.

which i did expect that to happen…..

but no so violently.

K cadet made us go round and round..which is quite irritating

juli did that too…but somehow i don;t feel anything.

wei keong and chestor eventually bet me….

expected the first. whatver the second.

tmr cross country and i have to run 3.3 km which is like so long.

but i still didn;t join road marshalling anyways.

since i like the one mark so much.

muscle cramping again. which is so irritating as well..

nothing makes me remotely happy these days.

leanne

npcc…again.

so here am i back,

on saturday night…waiting for sleep to come.

yeah…

npcc yesterday was quite “short” cause we have the OFFICIAL  MOI…

i might consider skipping nxt wk’s cause kathik doing MOI!

and i might or might not die.

@ least i am that confident that i will get higher than him…

but higher than wei keong , naveen or even praveen is not really remotely impossible.

at least my worst is over , but their;s is not,

16/20!!![not concluded]

highest as far.

but i think i might get lower. than that.

errors….stress.

oh yeah.

bad news. iffah got abolished as squad leader and i just got her position. SWELL>.

and rafie as well…with wei keong taking over.

now i know the seriousness of what prashan sir said abt wei keong. THE BEST MALE CADET.

i might have extra noticed the “Male” part.

we also tested our voices if it was coming from the stomach,

and naveen actually was labelled as “ getting there!!”

pricilla got a noticeable intentionality on using her vocal cords instead of stomach,

so….yeah.

 

leanne

blogging.

hi guys,

back to blogging again.

though i think i shouldn’t be blogging too much,

affect my studies.

hahahahaaaaa.

as if.

so that’s what happen todae.

i am officially going mad abt results.

one word abt it, i am killing.

yeah

changed new blogskin cause the old one picture got removed @ photobucket.

so here;s the new one.

lessons quite gd todae. maths still okay.

@ least i don’t feel worse.

seriously.

todae training still with MOI , and thk god that the thumby nvr got to do that.

he did it 3 times already.

and we were cursing after that.

and i only did twice.

and alot of ppl still haven do.

i thought that today it was not me one,

cause still got a lot of ppl.

but somehow all the haven go ppl go already.

prashan start saying something abt “ i stare @ u , u better come out”

that time i was staring @ the floors lols. then i raise my head suddenly realise he was staring @ ME

oh great. but still okay on the whole as compared to last time, though he did say sometime abt action lag.

well 9/10 is gd enough. better than praveen by 1/2 a mark[ everyone was like WTF] after the training.

hahahaaa..enough for me to happy for until i get the nxt test paper.

played blind mice [AGAIN!] before MOI and hahahaa…i won.

and i DON”T WANT to play again.

prashan say pressure , i say i don;t LIKE.

just don’t like.

i ned a confident boost and npcc gave me that. now i feel much more confident @ myself.

@ least if i don’t do well in my studies , i can go become a police.

yeah.

 

leanne

hi guys.

i am back. after 3 days.

in conclusion, that’s what happened in the last few days.

on friday , i got blind mice  and i won!!! finally. after wining praveen. [ damn sook.!]

and then i got praised for siting up straight after so much time.

yeah chocolates nxt trainingS! but i think i ate too much chocolate recently.

and no pumping positions for the day.

well.without the three musteekteers. …….

life can b e so gd. although moi training suck. without me.

and npcc training that dae seems to hear my muscles pain. no pain today!!!!

hopes it will continue,

thought my muscle got problem the other day when it ached so much.happpy!!!

but today is another issue.

i got 42% for my maths.

yeah. i know ur will be like “ you kidding me” but i feel back abt it.

totally bad, and where the heck is MR KOH!!!!

i ned him now. we ned him now. everyone moaning for him now.

HELP!

chinese homework

hi guys,

not being racist here.

just thought that i should share this with everyone.

homework.

文静下岗了。
文静走在大街上。她的心情不能说好，但也不能说坏，虽然说下岗对她来说实在是太不公平了些，可是她依然认了。大学毕业，她的成绩是优秀的，本来已经分到了局里面，然而因为在这期间她拒绝了一位领导公子的求爱，她被下放到了局办的一家公司。她认了。她想是金子就会发光，无论在何时何地。可是谁能知道仅仅两年的时间，公司就倒闭了。
她在浏览招聘启事。当她看到“海天集团公司”招聘一名财会人员，便向海天公司走来。路途之上的灯箱上用隶书写着“海天集团，有容乃大”的广告词，文静遂想这家公司的总裁一定是个有文化修养的人。
在气派的办公中心，她见到了总经理。
总经理打量着她，目光里带着一种别样的东西。她忙说：“总经理我介绍一下我的情况吧。”
总经理摇摇头说：“不用了，你被录用了。”
她有些疑惑地说：“可是总经理你还没有了解我的情况哩。”
总经理说：“不用了，我这人用人是凭直觉，你明天来上班吧。”
第二天，文静便来上班了，总经理已经让人安排好了她的办公室。
文静一直心里悬着，不踏实。因为她没有干财会工作，而是在做着一种类似于秘书的工作。她想如果让她做财务上的事，那么她心里会踏实一点，因为她可以通过自己的知识与能力让总经理认识她。可是现在她做的是与知识和能力都无关的事，因此她心里十分的不安。
一周后的一天，文静正准备下班，总经理说：“你今天得加班。”
她有点不明白想说什么，可是总经理已经走到门外，回头又说：“你先出去吃点饭吧，吃完饭回来在办公室里等我。”
她出去吃过饭，便在办公室里等总经理，可是总经理一直没见露面。她几次想回家，可是她又打消了念头，这是私营企业。又过了一个小时，总经理还没出现，她想可能总经理有事，她决定要回家了。当她走出办公室时，总经理正站在她的办公室门口。他看看她说：“来我的办公室吧。”
她便跟着总经理来到总经理办公室，一进门总经理便将门关上了。她不能不警惕，她对现在的总经理之类没有什么好感。总经理递给她一听饮料，她说：“谢谢，我刚刚在办公室喝过水。”
总经理看看她便埋下头去看一份文件，她说：“总经理有什么事要加班？时间不早了。”
总经理笑着站起来说：“你还不明白？”
她摇摇头。
总经理走到她跟前说：“加夜班。”说着便将手搭在她肩膀之上，另一只手去揽她。她厌恶地躲开说：“没啥事我就走了。”说着便往外走。
总经理大笑说：“你是个下岗工人，应该明白自己的处境，也应该明白自己的长处，我说过我用人是凭直觉。”
她鄙视地看着总经理说：“我当然明白。”
总经理笑着说：“这不就得了，你伺候我一个人总比你沦落到社会做个小姐伺候千百个男人要强，何况我从来都不亏待女人。”说着又走向她。
她嘲笑地说：“谢谢你如此的善良。”说罢转身就走。
总经理说：“别走，我们可以谈谈，你应该明白你下岗了，而我有的是钱和工作。”说着他拉开抽屉。一抽屉的百元大钞。
“我是下岗了，可是我的人格没有下岗，这就是我的长处。”说完便走出去，走了两步忽然想到应该在这样恶心的地方做点啥，于是她又走到总经理跟前一伸手扇了总经理两个耳光说：“第一个是替下岗女工打的，第二个是为你妻子打的。”
她想总经理一定会大怒的，没想到总经理笑了说：“你还真有劲，打得真疼。请坐，我有正事对你说。”
她说：“我不会听的。”
“真的，我这都是在试探你，因为财会人员对一个公司太重要了，我不能不慎重，有许多公司出事，都是和财会人员有关。欲望让一些人疯狂了，没有廉耻，什么手段都用，而人有时候是很难自控的。”
她看着总经理说：“这样试探的目的何在呢？”
“我怕你以后勾引我。”
她笑了，总经理笑笑说：“明天把你的简历和会计证书带来。”

this was meant to be a joke

but i don’t see the laugh

but i don’t think we can copy lehs.

cause 刘老师 should know alreadys.

no wonder only give like 8 lines for us to write. and no word limit.

like only 2 lines extra.

happy weekends.

 

leanne

http://www.xiaohua.cc/html/31200.html

hi gain

i am back

8 hrs later.

with a little hand cramp and muscle cramp though everything seems fine.

played wii too much.

i think . muscle cramp for 3 days , then followed by the legs. left , right , left.

what the…muscial ,.

nice.

life algain

hi guys,

blogging from the labs of anderson sec on 1.41 pm .
so i think i am so happy that i am even having a computer right now.

home com spoil and then kept crashing though i think the problem not very big as compared to the others car crashing incident.

but i must think of a solution. wasting time lah......
so...malware taken care of , virus i think ned reforcement
and then the trojan....houses..dunno.

so here am i going to the download.com to look out for the new and latest stuff that help me clean up my disk.
cause surrly it is disk problem.
even starting the computer with basic functions have the damn problem so here am i moaning abt it.

jia jin kept saying me and jun feng are gbr ...so irritating.
he even touch my hair and say that it is very fluffy......
i am not intrested lols..
i told him i ned sommone even more acheivements than i am

i think that was like only 3 days after the junior dared to touch my hair.
think what will happen when i take over....
hehhehee...

praveen wanted to take over the sec 2 squad [which is sec 1s now]
and i think i want to take over the sec 1 squad.
provided that praveen will be training chair and i will make up to the position.
hope so..

and i will make up to the position....@@@!!

yeah jia jin also said that i am elmo.
yeah....maybe as compared to what i am elmoing @/
results.

he not happy.
hah i also not happy.
cause like what ren says in skip beat.
i study like i am to get 100 for every subject.
maybe not 100 but a hell bunchs of As
like last yr.

haven see a lot of ppl since last yr.
everytime i see kuo chuan p sec, i think abt sean
everytime i see yishun sec , i think abt justin and also loy
everytime i see cresent girls , i think abt farihah
everytime i see a i sec , i think abt ai hui.
everytime i see cathalic high , i think abt benjamin.
what the ......................


leanne

我。

今天我又开始质疑

我努力的原因。

我灰心了，

开始又在迷失了我的方向。

总是觉得我好像在浪费时间。

－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－

 

今天我又看到那个卖爆米花的阿姨了。

突然有一股冲动想买他的东西。

 

它突然又让我联想到，

我的童年。

喜欢吃爆米花的我。

 

繁华的市集，

随着时间，

摊位漫漫的变少，

人再也不为它而停下脚步。

 

热闹的场景，

再也不存在。

想起了几米的作品：

 

流光

坚持等待一片不肯凋落的叶子坠下，

想起整树翠绿的青春，

冬天即将到来，钻进被窝里准备长长的冬眠，

我望着最后的枯叶，

松脱，飘落，翻转。。。。。

为消逝的时光，默哀。

 

我为我的童年，默哀．

 

http://toto.sharera.com/blog/BlogTopic/12292.htm

npcc sad

hi guys,

today is quite a sad day .

except that our npcc unit GOT GOLD!!!!!

erhemm….

i think that i am quite angry now too

knowing that i ned to erhemm..

study for hell lot of subjects…

no time.

but sad today.

angry.

hi guys,

very angry today.

the total result is – being angrier

1] there is Chinese idioms tests today 35 sentences , remembered to sentenced them after 3 days only.

2] all of them except only a finger tip was out on the paper.

3] and i still have to sit for the test after the 30 minute last minute learning of some idiotic idioms

4] and there is abt 15 blanks to fill , 4 sentences to construct and i summary of 80 words[ he said no summary!! plus one more]. all in 35 minutes.

no wonder i am so angry.

5] mental algebra test 2 results out , got 1 wow what an improvement.

6] and maths teacher treat us like we are idiots.

7] yes we are and we don’t ned reminding

8] and then she comforted us that maybe the nxt test we are doing better. yeah as if i will feel better after that.

9] my legs hurt. gd thing mr leong nvr come today. yeah as if it will feel better.

10] nxt wek got maths and sci tests.

11] and Sunday i got road marshalling [ yeah!] yeah so much for the test

12] and tmrr friday. so much for the weekend

13] tmrr got compo . chinese. to do in one hr. and what to research? nothing.

14] i feel like swearing today. which is like whatever.

if only i could change the world…..

hahhaa..valentine tomorrow and i got no body to ask me out…which is like whatever…

asraf kept asking me for flowers which i was like i don’t even buy one where to get one….

well..ask him to get his flowers from POP and then happy valentine!!!

hahah…

well…a lot of ppl have a lot of presents..and flowers..

xin hui have a fair number which is like admiring especially the bear….so CUTE!!!!!+_+

went and go borrow some Chinese books which is like no time to even read lols, homework piling up like hell..

last Sunday was fun went to uncle’s house , have a fair bit of $$$…

total defence celebrations today i hardly got anytime get my throat healed..

but good thing i didn’t volunteer to become the ppl standing there like statues…

or else..i will die.

have a fair number of pic taken..enjoy.  

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

hahha…seng hee’s present to someone else..so cute!!!!      

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

that;s a lot of brochures and the one on the top right is mine!!!hahha…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

i can’t resist things that are made by me….but definitely not the nccs…just take them for fun…that’s MY poster!!!!! 

 

 

 

tried to take pictures of ncos but they are dimissed into outside np roomm.

should have taken pic of prashan and ivan sir with the torch rifles ….

 

 

 

 

 

that;s my valentine gifts… all from girls…

 

 

 

 

 

 

finally jia jin goes down!! ncc boys so lame..

jia jin below all the human meat.,,,,

 

 

 

leanne

i feel like dying

history test and geography test nxt monday…

which is damn sickening

and i will fail for sure,

i don’t even bother to look @ the bks……

 

lesson quite good …. all the stuff still passable

cause no maths and no history

relieved that IT”S FRIDAY!!!!

 

npcc quite slack , nothing to do with half the squad in some other place…..

played captain’s ball like for only 10 minutes before rain comes

and thunder alert sounds…

oh man…….

 

taught sec ones the cheers today,

nearly blasted my ear drums…

i vividly remembered that last yr cheers were taught by the sec 2s,….

now .???when i teach???

okay….talked with asraf abt subject combinations and some other stuff which i forgot

…….

indira heard me complain abt the sec ones like for 41 mins..which is record breaking..

must tell myself that I AM SEC 2 , they are SEC ones.

so hear nothing , see nothing.

endurance…the road towards self discipline.

that’s what npcc is abt … learning the secret behind the shiny badges and almost perfect drills.

but now elevated to self discipline instead of the usual forced discipline…

 

ah yah…we are talk abt how easy it is to change cca…

when jia jin kept talking about our npcc uniform , no ranking , no wearing problem…

well…i like wear uniform a lot …but if the uniform is more fitting the answer will be difinate yes….

 

leanne @ dying.com

npcc sec ones!!!!!

yeah ! finally the sec ones come today …

played a prank with the entire squad by sms the other day 2.50 must fall in ..

which i think 3.00 was the exact time .

but nvms that don’t really matter cause i think everyone on high alert today…..

which i will make sure i change the time to 10 mins eariler the nxt time i get to type

the sms….

 

i think the sec ones played wacko the entire time which is huh?

nvm but i think i got a fair bit of drills and pt…

sir say must work on my marching more…which i think he said something abt same leg same hand…

 

leanne

when’s the next hoilday?

i wanna die already….

i ned more hoildays…with all the indices and stuff like that……….

npcc currently doing com stuff..which is erhemm….weird..later drills and pt die liao lohs…

i ned more insipiration on my books which have died for the last few weeks…

so i borrow some bks from seung hee and then start reviewing again..which is taking me a very long time..

drafts are all siting in my page…

and then i stiill ned to sort of the stuff in my handphone..

which the songs are titleless or artistless…..

and making me crazy….

when is THE sec 1s coming???for cca…

 

this is what i found when i did research on npcc..kindly posted by farah..

sometime i got a feeling that i am seeing what i shouldnot..

http://andss-npcc.blogspot.com/

 

leanne

evergreen revisit

when is the last time i on the com? three days ago.

which is very long considering that i can’t live without computer.

todae i went back to evergreen,

while the sch doesn’t let us in [ we wait outside loh]

the teachers are almost gone already anyways.

except that i saw mr pillay and also mr phua [ chinese teacher].

we talked for a while. then he has to go

and then jian le and tiffany went to my house for a little more chatting abt cca and stuff like that.

still feel a little graying because time really filies so fast. faster than i have ever imagine.

jia jin said in class yesterday that my blog is dead_ which is [ so ridiculas]

the very special talk on wedneday in npcc…seems to treasue npcc more.

NPCC ROCKS!

 

leanne

toxic plastic bottles

http://www.leas.ca/On-the-Trail-of-Water-Bottle-Toxins.htm

http://www.breakthechain.org/exclusives/waterbottles.html

http://www.debraslist.com/freecontent/fca_toxicbottles.html

皮草图热

    

  

pictures when spelling in hanyupingying becomes 皮草图热

but nvr mind.,, showing u the pictures  of my class deco,

while the room is red , my heart seems to be black .

everyday is a black day.

 

leanne

有时候会觉得人生无比的无奈。

做错得再也不能悔改，

明明没有错也要认错。

很想对天空呐喊，

为什么人生如此无偿。

为什么我要重新来过？

为什么我不能原地踏步？

 

那为什么在人山人海的人群中，

还是感受到如此的寂寞？

明明知道，

会受伤的，

但是还是去想。

明明知道，

初恋，

始终不能长久。

 

我也许只能逞得了多一点点了。

都是荷尔蒙在作怪，只能怪荷尔蒙吧。

也许，早熟的童年，让我们，做出无法自拔的事。

所以，我选择，

不要恋爱。

不可以恋爱。

dying.

hi guys,

i know my birthday already over , u are can go back to hearing the songs.

i know i  am in sec  2 already , but i still can;t adapt to live in sec sch

everything seems to change from the timetables , sch hours all the way to simply the teachers.....

and everyone seems to agree that we have 2 " witch teachers.

and a lot of ppl agree that mr khoo's class is quite erheemm...

well u know we are all sleeping with our eyes open....

and gd thing sec 2 are not really involve in the cca open house except we ned to do the posters and orientate

which is tmrr....

ai hui by the hand had made me very nervous, elly told me that she is not answering her calls

which is very disturbing to me.

well 早熟的童年.

which i think i will try not to get emotions into my studies, if i can for like until i graduate.

{ so leave me alone]

the chinese lesson this wk was abt kong zi

which is my favourite subject in chinese but i sitll can;t seems to remember any of the 论语.

felt like i am very stupid but nvr mind who would remember this kind of stuff?

oh well, when will i get internal peace ????

 

leanne

birthday sleep

Happy birthday to you - HAPPY BIRTHDAY

while i content myself with a simple song and countdown,
i wish all of u a happy birthday! on ur birthday of course.

leanne

dying of the unknown

hi guys...

 

i am..............

 

dying..of i don't know what......................

 

I MISS SEC 1!!!!!!