I think this is one of the few times in the year that I feel like getting on a airplane and just escape. Escaping really seems like a good option considering how things are going at the moment.
Really feeling a little depressed. Something is bothering me, just that I don’t know what. That means I don’t know how to get rid of it too. Bad considering how things are going. I am losing the drive, the motivation, the ability to excel along with it. I was a proud student. Now, no more. Where’s my pride? gone the moment I didn’t hit my targets. I was becoming less perfectionist, supposed to make me more happy.
Now its hard to be happy. Happy for a moment by fun and laughter. Not happy long term by my achievements and direction. What do I want to be? Can I even be what I want to be? Will I ever be able to be what I want to be? That kind of feeling lingers. I am not anxious about the path, probably more upset about what things are feeling now. GREAT.
Leanne
