SCHOOL!

okay screaming with both joy and {haizs}. I am officially DE-burden with all the holiday homework, thank god for that. And then Mother Tongue O’level Oral is coming, giving me the creeps, though i totally look forward to any movie treats after that..And then i am totally sleep-deprived. The issue is not that i don’t have time to sleep, it is that i CAN’t sleep… It is starting to get on my nerves, especially when i start to lose concentration in between lessons…. Monday’s rest time was spent on NP meeting which i believed could have been shorten, and then tuesday EFL everything just delay…and tmr dry shoot.even worse. I WILL NEVER GET SLEEP! Saturday is due for EXPLORALLY, which i very nearly signed up to be a facilitor for.I GIVE UP…

HOLIDAYS!

okay, its the holidays. 2 more weeks left now and i have done NOTHING! i am starting to panic, quite a bit. Though i have a lot of excuse to use, considering that i have LOTS of Camps and Courses this holidays, it is quite excusable. STC is, to my horror, surprisely fun and then yeah, missing the high ropes because of lightning alert, CAT 1. Then went for jetty jump which is okay, except the part that i was wet. HAHA. Basically all the discipline stuff is there all the time during the Camp, which is totally expected because it is a NPCC one! That’s what i really think. Congrats to Hector from Xinmin for winning the best male camper award for the STC lot, and also Lim Xi for the ATC one ( knew he was up to it). Then i was somewhat Happy to find that my lucky number came up again and i won 5 packets of Compact rations because i choose 28. All the hunches and everything. the LMSC course on last Thursday-Fri was quite okay, considering what i would have expected. The lectures are still in my attention span, considering i have been to many of the similar (Blame all the enrichment courses that i stayed back for). The flag day was quite fun with Rachel around, i managed to get around not eating junk food for Lunch. Thks.

Before i end off, just want to  self-note that i am gradually falling into depression again. Considering the 1 yr anniversary of my (i wanna die) incident. Yeah.

Leanne

POP part two and summary.

this post is suppose to be on by last night, or early this morning,but my dad sort of came home early and “snatch” the computer. By the way, i couldn’t do anything about it because he was he one the brought this computer…

well, this week has been pretty heretic, with the papers given out,horror and the excitement. And not to forgot today’s POP PART 2. I really glad in someway or another that this event will finally put pass us, for the dedication that Juliana, Jedi and I put in has finally paid off and we can heave a small sigh of relief before other matters come into our hands. I really want to say a BIG thank you to all the NCOs, for all their hard work that they have put in to ensure that NPCC remained as the most favoured and respected CCA ever. And i really hope that i would be able to do something in this very short year to improve it. Abdul had very kindly “stalked” Wei Keong and me so that he could give us some useful pointers. I guess i still have a lot to learn from Abdul too, his moral values and character is admiring, which even i could not really compare. It’s been a really short year, with the H1N1 that caused the “mini-NDP” parade last year, we sec 3s have to ensure that the sec 1s are up to supporting contingent’s level of skills and discipline that is still acceptable by the various UGs. Of course, this year we are still not very sure which CCA will be honoured to be the GOH, but i seriously hope that it would be us.

Results on the other hand, is not instantaneously gratifying.  i got all the weird scores, but i am still glad that i PASSED my biology!@!!!! i have no idea how my history and SS turn out together, because i did exceptionally well for the SS and  failed my HISTORY. I used to think that failing history is like no kidding impossible for me, but i still have no idea how i fail it. BY half a mark that is. On the other hand, i am immensely glad that i got an A1 for my mother tongue while my English maintained to be at the “ ANYWHERE BUT FAIL”. i got all the A2 for my geography, chemistry and E maths, and i got all the Bs for my other sub..which is not good.

Hope that i will do better next time ;)

Leanne

okay, i can't believe i am doing this. I could have went to facebook, youtube and all the blah blah blah and now i am blogging. I do not understand. I can quite bored actually so after doing all the piles of survey that we have to finish within an hours, i decided to self-entertain myself..by writing this. This post will totally be crap so yeah.

exams are finally over,oh yeah, but i still can't believe that it is. All the things happened so fast lately and i don't have much time to react to all it. We are suppose to meet MR KOh this afternoon, with is about 56 minutes late so yeah..hope that i do get what i want, but i really don't know what i really want. I will spent time this weekend to regain back my mood and hopefully finish the time graph math worksheets that are suppose to be dued after the exams and do whatever i want.

This hoilday i plan to self-enrich myself by going to flag days, libaries and learning new things. I realised that i need to learn a much more boarder knowledge to be able to live my life as of now more up to the fullest.

SO yeah..
Leanne

Myspace Graphics and Myspace Layouts

Examinations

i guess i shouldn’t be doing this . i mean blogging when there is chemistry tomorrow and not to mention social studies but i really want to say that i am depressed. which is quite usual considering that i am not getting into the study mode. again. i have even forgot how to study i think. ever since the depression that i felt in the last semester that i still have not quite recover from that is. i really hope that this feeling can go away. life have been happy for quite a while if you really define happiness as amount of time being busy. NPAP has been the best decision of my life i think , it delays me from thinking to much about anything and finally feel accomplished for once. But i really feel disappointed that i couldn’t get out of it, base on my perfectionist character i would have probably studied biology by now but yeah i totally give it up when i failed it last term. so i am getting nowhere and still no direction unlike the previous times, i am changing i know it . i don’t know who and i don’t know why. i hope its for the better. Being relaxed also have a bad advantage though, overestimating and underestimating things that shouldn’t be.

 

so :

habits. Can't be changed

内心的世界
是否会得到平静？
发现习惯慢慢慢慢地在变化
我交错在两界之间
慢慢慢慢地在变
变呀变呀
我到底是在变好变坏？
不知道

也不想知道。
很想由内心来发觉身边的事物
但无能为力。