享受人生

很想知道，我因该以什么方式来享受人生，

很久没去旅游了，很想念那种无忧无虑的假期。

也许要等到很久以后吧，现在也许不是最佳时期。

Learning all over again.

Learning is the best of all wealth; it is easy to carry, thieves cannot steal it, the tyrants cannot seize it; neither water nor fire can destroy it; and far from decreasing, it increases by giving.
Naladiyar

depressed.again.

i am really not surprised i am not depressed at this point of time. Really, who wouldn’t? my lowest mark i ever got in my life is now 47 and NOT 50. and its a science. even my maths fare better than that. feels so much worse when sathya cried during lesson today. He didn’t fail bio. I did.

i guess i need to get used to the idea that i am going to fail some time and another. It suppose to be normal but my character seems to not permit it. well, it all comes down to how i cope with everything i guess. my attitude wants and needs to change, though i realised that i am starting to take things quite lightly than before. a good progress, but not good enough to keep me from being depressed. i really hope that i could see the light some day, i really need to see on the bright side of things. These life stuff have to be changed gradually over time, and i am getting impatient.

getting depressed open myself to a lot of things. I now have to control my feelings through music, none of which i felt necessary till now.Calming my nerves and controlling my feelings through classical may be a great way, but it’s sort of deceiving to yourself too…. Part of me wants to feel great, while the other part still wants to be depressed enough to get inspiration of some sort.

I need to do something abt it.

Leanne

未来

有时候会认为自己看得到未来，

因为我知道人性和人格。

所以连我自己的未来，

我也可能知道。

感觉自己生边得颜色都是蓝色的，

天是蓝色的，

海也是蓝色的，

就连自己喜欢的东西都似蓝色的。

校服，制服，都是蓝色的。

 

可我最喜欢的颜色却是紫色，

很喜欢浅而不去的紫色，

也很喜欢黑色，

因为是个很好看的颜色。

 

我是否，要在我的生命中注入新的颜色？

CAFFEINE-ISSUE

i am going down with a caffeine issue last week as the usual. The ice lemon tea, coke and stuff like that keeps me awake when i want to sleep. Glad that it went out of my system already. Because i am going crazy.

Leanne

POP countdown.

I was thinking today after Shawn told me that Arvin hinted to take charge of B.O.B which he puzzled over for some time and finally asked me about it.i told him that it was probably POP and he AH for a while. I briefly told me what i wanted to plan for POP and he sort of agree to it. I mean what can we seriously do during POP? the same old stuff. And i just realised today that my squad might get into a financial crisis. there are alot of NCOs and there is only 10 of us. POOr us and i have to work so hard to get cheap presents….

Leanne