回看过去

发现去年的日子大部份都活在一个忧伤的世界中。今年保持着笑容，想要通过困难重重的学期，发现自尊心强了，人也变了，变的更有耐心，更坚强，但是同样的问题还是出现，只是不同人在考验我的心情，拜托老天爷，难关不是我惹的，为什么却是由我承担？

Why is life so complicated?

Lessons to learn

I think i am learning to control my anger. I am not saying that i am not controlling my anger now, but i supressed my anger gradually before. I did not explode in a year, some improvements over the year. I am just letting it off because of the ncos issue. Then i discovered i couldn't control it! Yeah, not i am very frustrated. I need to control and learn to let it off the right time...

如果

如果我是蓝天，那我会不会是晴天？
如果我是鸟儿，那我会不会自由豪翔？
如过我是花朵，我是否会天天胜开？
这些假如的问题，我都没有答案。
城市小民族都有一个特别之处，就是很喜欢把自己关闭在梦想中的国度。

SCHOOL!

okay screaming with both joy and {haizs}. I am officially DE-burden with all the holiday homework, thank god for that. And then Mother Tongue O’level Oral is coming, giving me the creeps, though i totally look forward to any movie treats after that..And then i am totally sleep-deprived. The issue is not that i don’t have time to sleep, it is that i CAN’t sleep… It is starting to get on my nerves, especially when i start to lose concentration in between lessons…. Monday’s rest time was spent on NP meeting which i believed could have been shorten, and then tuesday EFL everything just delay…and tmr dry shoot.even worse. I WILL NEVER GET SLEEP! Saturday is due for EXPLORALLY, which i very nearly signed up to be a facilitor for.I GIVE UP…

HOLIDAYS!

okay, its the holidays. 2 more weeks left now and i have done NOTHING! i am starting to panic, quite a bit. Though i have a lot of excuse to use, considering that i have LOTS of Camps and Courses this holidays, it is quite excusable. STC is, to my horror, surprisely fun and then yeah, missing the high ropes because of lightning alert, CAT 1. Then went for jetty jump which is okay, except the part that i was wet. HAHA. Basically all the discipline stuff is there all the time during the Camp, which is totally expected because it is a NPCC one! That’s what i really think. Congrats to Hector from Xinmin for winning the best male camper award for the STC lot, and also Lim Xi for the ATC one ( knew he was up to it). Then i was somewhat Happy to find that my lucky number came up again and i won 5 packets of Compact rations because i choose 28. All the hunches and everything. the LMSC course on last Thursday-Fri was quite okay, considering what i would have expected. The lectures are still in my attention span, considering i have been to many of the similar (Blame all the enrichment courses that i stayed back for). The flag day was quite fun with Rachel around, i managed to get around not eating junk food for Lunch. Thks.

Before i end off, just want to  self-note that i am gradually falling into depression again. Considering the 1 yr anniversary of my (i wanna die) incident. Yeah.

Leanne

POP part two and summary.

this post is suppose to be on by last night, or early this morning,but my dad sort of came home early and “snatch” the computer. By the way, i couldn’t do anything about it because he was he one the brought this computer…

well, this week has been pretty heretic, with the papers given out,horror and the excitement. And not to forgot today’s POP PART 2. I really glad in someway or another that this event will finally put pass us, for the dedication that Juliana, Jedi and I put in has finally paid off and we can heave a small sigh of relief before other matters come into our hands. I really want to say a BIG thank you to all the NCOs, for all their hard work that they have put in to ensure that NPCC remained as the most favoured and respected CCA ever. And i really hope that i would be able to do something in this very short year to improve it. Abdul had very kindly “stalked” Wei Keong and me so that he could give us some useful pointers. I guess i still have a lot to learn from Abdul too, his moral values and character is admiring, which even i could not really compare. It’s been a really short year, with the H1N1 that caused the “mini-NDP” parade last year, we sec 3s have to ensure that the sec 1s are up to supporting contingent’s level of skills and discipline that is still acceptable by the various UGs. Of course, this year we are still not very sure which CCA will be honoured to be the GOH, but i seriously hope that it would be us.

Results on the other hand, is not instantaneously gratifying.  i got all the weird scores, but i am still glad that i PASSED my biology!@!!!! i have no idea how my history and SS turn out together, because i did exceptionally well for the SS and  failed my HISTORY. I used to think that failing history is like no kidding impossible for me, but i still have no idea how i fail it. BY half a mark that is. On the other hand, i am immensely glad that i got an A1 for my mother tongue while my English maintained to be at the “ ANYWHERE BUT FAIL”. i got all the A2 for my geography, chemistry and E maths, and i got all the Bs for my other sub..which is not good.

Hope that i will do better next time ;)

Leanne