spur on the moment

when i become usually me, i am unusually me.

when i think,time ticks by.

perhaps while we search for immortality,

immortality is searching for mortality.

when we search for the future,

future changes while we search.

while we search for the antidote to time,

time is the antidote.

As much as we search in ourselves,

we may never find,

what is truly,

impossible.

 

leanne

有时你会觉得，

一切都是命中注定。

无论我再这么努力，

我都是无能为力。

让我更糟的是，

我却毫无知觉。

一次又一次的告诉自己，

我必须为此付出我的一切。

我却得不到我想到的。

从古自今，

成绩，

永远是努力的成绩。

我却一次又一次的容许我自己失败。

我变得，

好恐怖。

我。

今天我又开始质疑

我努力的原因。

我灰心了，

开始又在迷失了我的方向。

总是觉得我好像在浪费时间。

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今天我又看到那个卖爆米花的阿姨了。

突然有一股冲动想买他的东西。

 

它突然又让我联想到，

我的童年。

喜欢吃爆米花的我。

 

繁华的市集，

随着时间，

摊位漫漫的变少，

人再也不为它而停下脚步。

 

热闹的场景，

再也不存在。

想起了几米的作品：

 

流光

坚持等待一片不肯凋落的叶子坠下，

想起整树翠绿的青春，

冬天即将到来，钻进被窝里准备长长的冬眠，

我望着最后的枯叶，

松脱，飘落，翻转。。。。。

为消逝的时光，默哀。

 

我为我的童年，默哀．

 

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angry.

hi guys,

very angry today.

the total result is – being angrier

1] there is Chinese idioms tests today 35 sentences , remembered to sentenced them after 3 days only.

2] all of them except only a finger tip was out on the paper.

3] and i still have to sit for the test after the 30 minute last minute learning of some idiotic idioms

4] and there is abt 15 blanks to fill , 4 sentences to construct and i summary of 80 words[ he said no summary!! plus one more]. all in 35 minutes.

no wonder i am so angry.

5] mental algebra test 2 results out , got 1 wow what an improvement.

6] and maths teacher treat us like we are idiots.

7] yes we are and we don’t ned reminding

8] and then she comforted us that maybe the nxt test we are doing better. yeah as if i will feel better after that.

9] my legs hurt. gd thing mr leong nvr come today. yeah as if it will feel better.

10] nxt wek got maths and sci tests.

11] and Sunday i got road marshalling [ yeah!] yeah so much for the test

12] and tmrr friday. so much for the weekend

13] tmrr got compo . chinese. to do in one hr. and what to research? nothing.

14] i feel like swearing today. which is like whatever.

time really have passed , it's 2009 in 1 hr and a plus

time really have passed , it's 2009 soon.

hi guys,

sorry for the long time no serious post thing

yes i know i am partically putting crap on my blog

but seeing that i really hardly have the time

forgive me

[ i feel like talking to a wall]

but happy new year in advance of an hour

i would really wanted to log on exactly on 12pm to give my wishes to all of u..

it had been a wonderful yr for me and i hope to continue that luck nxt yr

last yr i wasn't so emotional till i really couldn't let go of the fact that it's gonna be 2008

but this yr,

it;'s different

as the last post of 2008 hopefully.

i will find more inspiration towards a better way of life

and my books of course

.i love 2008 and i hope u do to

i am gonna miss it

leanne

books

是时候该把书

还给图书馆了。

但是，

我却无法对它说，

再见。

我知道，

我将无法忘怀这本书的味道。

Achievement day 2008 by evergreen pri sch

today,

i got a prize which i don't really want to receive.

why?

cause i feel unfitted for the prize.

i was NOT THE TOP 10 psle student according to the t-score

and yet i got the top 10 psle student award.

why?

because i was one of the top 10 according to the number of a* and As.

OMG! this is not even o' levels and they give out the prize according to that?

strange.

sometimes family can be a hindrance to our lives...

don't u think?

whether they like to correct the way u dress , the way u talk,

according to there own likings...

for example, i got words like U ARE WEARING UR UNIFORM WRONGLY! HOW COME UR RIGHT SHOULDER LOOK LOPE-SIDED!

which i have my own Answering like ' THE WEIGHT OF MY WALLET IS CAUSING IT!" for the dunno how many hundreds times i have explained from the

start of the yr to the end of the yr.

these words to me made me feel inferior.

don't u think?

leanne

that's one of the violin.....

                                                                                                

i actually love this..

i have beeen looking for nice and smoothing music for a long time..

and the above is the one i found on one of the joustar's writer;s blog

which  is very nice...violin!!!

below is one of the clicks additional that i have found...

see yah..

leanne waiting for violin inspiration.

pathetic

i felt me myself as a pathetic person todae.

 

simpy becuase that i felt nothing NOTHING , algainst the words that she said.

 

perhaps i felt that that isn't for me..but a afterthought when i told it to my sister.

 

 

still nothing like my heart have plungled in to numbness.

 

i bet painkilers do have side-effects too..

i am worried that i will downgrade into someone scary.

 

which i eventually will because , i don't eat the pills myself.someone forced it down my throat.

 

leanne

第三次了

第三次了，

 

我再次感受到文字的杀伤力。

复原的时间越来越长。

她打开了我的旧伤。

再次地感受到，

我难以忘怀的感觉。

 

我似乎心到了终点

但人还没。

有一天

我会疯掉的。

有一天我会。

 

但愿如此。

 

＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿

一个人的折磨

 

有人说过，

世上最寂寞的人，

是即使自己身在人群中，

也感受到最深沉的寂寞。

 

但我觉得，

最寂寞的人，

是哪些尝试让自己不寂寞的人，

尝试融入，

尝试分享，

尝试拥有有情的时候。

 

有时，

又会发现，

你没有什么。

 

但发生这种事，

似乎不是我的错。

 

人为的自私，

让人更痛苦。

 

只能对大家说一声：

我没做错，我也没做对。我一直都站在那条线。

hoildays

hi guys...

hoildays are coming so fast...

i am like i wanna hoilday !!!

this sat is the musical thing and i am very excited abt it...

finally i get to wtach a muscial...hahahhaha

 

i am feeling quite lonely recently...

mainly because i feel that no one has knew much about me..

i am still mysteriously wandering around

 

speaking for hoildays..

i was wondering if anyone wanna find me a job...

working as a script writer?????

dunno..but considering it if anyone wanna buy my products...

i am writing a lot recently ..so i am thinking if i can sell them or something...

if you ned someone to write a script for a skit or something[ even for the MC also can]

contact me through my email...

i am still considering if anyone wanna buy my script...but no promise that my stuff will work...

 

i am reading a lot recently...

and  i am looking for something in life...

what is it..??? i still dunno..

 

leanne

大家都是匆匆地来，匆匆地去。

 

最近遇到了很多老朋友，

大家都是匆匆地来，匆匆地去。

我们在一起的时间不过几秒钟，

最多说自己过得怎么样，

最少只有嗨的一个字。

还没有人会像以前一样，和我一起，

在回家的路上，一起交谈着，

我们共同拥有的这几秒钟，似乎不够用。

我，

好像还在活在昨天，想念着我的老同学们，我们一起上下课的时候，

我，

还没找到我生活的方式，

我，

还在等待着那一个人的到来。

 

我要找到我生活的方式。我必定要找到。

songs that are lost and found

found this song accidentally..still wanna cry ...

 

the road of yellow leaves.....

looking at the road of yellow leaves .....and the falling leaves..i feel a sense of sadness in the air as i walked home...

i am so glad that i choose that route...it seems to hinge my memories..but what? i don't know...

looking at the once glorious and also bare tree, i thought is atumn coming?why now? i came to understand it may be the effects of the dry weather...or simply global warming....

the yellow...tingling sadness...once remind me of the ? the strings of thoughts ....the exams all gone..what's left..the bark of the tree..the scene..you could have felt it..

the road of uncleaned yellow leaves..the raiining leaves...

 

what;s life,,,

that;'s what i wanna find out

and who knows? i may nvr find the ans

 

leanne

 

what's life to you?

我突然觉得人生好空虚

我找不到目标

我们好像时间的玩物，

一直在和他赛跑，

我们一直在和他玩，

却到头来是我们倒下了，

他还是在跑。

我觉得我现在好像在浪费时间，

我要做更有意义的事。

 

陈静怡

life is short it's up to you to make it sweet

hiya,

it had been a long time since my last post. we could all be seen revising our work except some mad lunatics doing what they should not be doing... affecting our mood for PSLE. shocking how much time flies, and it's about 8 days to it !!!

well, not only this i would like to highlight something. there's someone[whom i cannot say] whose father bacause of teminal cancer, has only a few months to live. the news was a blow and unexpectd to her.....

this incident really reminds me of the importance of family and friends and also helped me realised that time is need to be used wisely. i would treasure the time i had with my loved ones and strive for the best. hope i made it though with flying colours!!!


leanne
see yah