something i wanna tell todaay

hmm..dunno why i just feel like writing...but somehow i got to this topic..

something is always questioning my sense of judegement ever since i am able to make one...that it is only one words - trust..

the topic of trust haha...

i always feel that i should just let go and trust someone..seriously....but i just can't or even i do it...i would always have a sense of doubt

and i feel that i can predict just what would happen when they soemhow..nver do it ..

the case with my history report...she ran away with it..somehow..because her aunt is giving birth>???not dying...just the fact that is giving birh..she may seems excitied

i still no matter waht is a bleach of trust...she forgot to bring the day before..went for choir  reshearsal the day that we are suppose to give the report to..

then what...??after the concert we called her when we saw her and she put a sign that  clearly states that it is WAIT. we waited outside the staff room and desperately trying to find 

her....and i can't believe i wiatede for such a long  timethat i almost misssed the time for primary school reunion..and i am so angry..i wanted to kill her....umariah was already crying

and i was very calm ..calmier that usual...normally as i know..i would be worried sick..yet i was very calm..i was angry inside..that i should have forsee that she was not going to hand

up..i should have the day befreo..but i choose to trust her..trusting becomes and other adventure that i dunno whether to ambark or not....i always believe that the person stahding in

front of me is always believable..and i choose to ignore what is important to me...something that i have or don't have a judement on...

although other ppl in my grp say it's oaky..i still feel wrong..the trust was lost on her and she is still in my IPW grp..talking like mad to her frend..i am the grp leadert hello..

respect me..and where;s my proposals..? they always l8ive in their own world..go and sing the first line of start of something new....i even now feel she does not live in my grp..i am so 

tempted to say i that i want her out of my grp...she says something that i have said..she asked something i have said...making me feel that i have waste my saliva..and i am in the

period of i am wanting to kill her and kick her out type

should i continue to trust?finding the ans day by day

 

leanne